Weird Dream II

A dream that sounds like a drama. Have any of u guys had this kind of dream? Well for me, I just got this kind of dream this morning (or should I say last night?) I woke up crying because of it. It felt so real. As a matter of fact, it is still really vivid and clear in my mind right now.

So here it goes.

Ben was married. And his wife wasn't me. And they got a kid together already. But that didn't stop us from meeting and so in another word, we were having an affair. That was until I was about to get married to. An arranged marriage to an old man, old enough to be my grandfather..oh alright, maybe I am exaggerating a little there.

So on that the night before my 'wedding', Ben and I went out and took a walk downtown. We were talking happily as if nothing was going to happen the next day. After a while, Ben said he was going somewhere for a minute and asked me to wait for him in front of a shop. But after half an hour, he didn't return so I went to look for him.

It turned out that he was on the bus heading home. I chased the bus and asked him to come down. Luckily, the next stop wasn't so far from there and he came down. I went to him and immediately hugged him, sobbing, asking why did he just left me without saying a single word.

We both went teary and cried. And that was when we decided to elope, leaving our families and friends and lives behind. Starting anew in a place far far away.

I woke up this morning because of that. My eyes we really teary..I guessed I really cried because my pillow was wet too. I was so puzzled and confused and scared. When I turned my head to my left, I became calm & had sense of peace in my mind when I saw this image below on my laptop screen:

Ben was there sleeping soundly. I didn't remember skyping with him before I went to bed. I think he must have called in the middle of the night, and I subconciously answered the call.

I hope he'll be as healthy as before soon. He just came back from the hospital and he's a little bit weak still. I really thank God that his surgery went on well. I was really worried for the past one week.

Ben, get well soon. You are in my mind & prayers always.

Locker room talks

Okay, in real life, I'm more like a quiet person. I don't really talk that much when I am in a big crowd. But I do talk a lot with people whom I know really well though. So whenever I am in the locker room, I never really mingle around (except with people whose lockers are near to mine), but I observe a lot!

We usually have short breaks for about 20mins during lab sessions. And the dental hospital actually doesn't really have a common room. There's quite a few cafeterias around the hospital, but I need to change my scrubs if I were to go there. So usually I'll just go back to the locker room and sit on the bench at the very end corner and listen to my mp4.. (mostly Hey Say Jump songs because they sound really uplifting..much needed motivation in the middle of lab sessions..especially 'Beatline'..don't don't give up, don't don't give up, hey!) haha

But sometimes, during the days when my mp4 suddenly ran out of battery, or I left it at home, I just sit there and observe around. Creepy me huh? I'm not eavesdropping. Everyone was just talking so casually and loudly, so I heard.

Apparently, last Wednesday was Prof Allen's birthday. The seniors were talking about that. No wonder he was such in a good mood when he was giving his lecture that day. He even cracked jokes!

I really enjoyed listening to a fifth year senior complaining about his son getting up at night, crying asking for milk. This senior gave birth when she was in 4th year and his son is now turning 1. She was saying that he got hungry really fast.

Locker room is also where gossips travel the fastest I guess~ hehehe

Weird Dream I

Last Thursday, it was my turn to be the nurse in the clinic. So my partner, Aoife was the dentist. She booked her patient in at 9.15am that morning.

On Wednesday night, Ben and I went on skype and talked a lot. So I slept a bit later. We had not been on skype for nearly 2 weeks and we had so much to talk about. It was not that I wasn't aware that I had to get up early the next day, I was just too excited meeting Ben online..hehehe..I couldn't even remember what time I actually went to bed that night.

I remember snoozing my alarm several times before I eventually woke up that morning. It was 10.50am when I looked at my phone. What??!!! Clinic started at 9.15am and I was supposed to be there at least by 8.45am to set up everything. Oh my God, I was so panicked. My partner must be really mad at me for not showing up. And at that very moment, I began to think of brilliant excuses. The best I could think of was simply I slept in because I was sick. So I called her, and much to my relief, Aoife my partner told me that her patient canceled the session and it was ok for me for not turning up anyway. hahaha and happily, I went back to sleep. Because the next lecture will only start at 1pm.

Then I woke up for the second time..thinking that it was 11 or noon..however,

7:15am was shown on my phone. 7:15am on my laptop too. 7:20 on my watch (because it's 5 minutes early)

oohhhh so that was just a dream after all? yes, u read it right. I was just dreaming earlier..hehehe

But the dream felt so real though. I was panicking and all.

vvvvvvvv-day

Valentine's Day? It was 2 days ago. And I bought chocolates for myself..hehehe.

Everyone was talking about it in class, in labs, everywhere. Things like what did u do on V-day, or did u bake chocolate cakes for someone, or did u get any roses. I just smiled when those questions were being asked & enjoyed listening to other people's stories instead. Because on Valentine's Day this year, I was at home, watching a Japanese drama (Proposal Daisakusen) and watching Hey Say Jump's Nagoya concert..hahahah!!!

Omaigad, seriously, Nakajima Yuto is so hot especially when he's playing the drums. His lines in Beatline is my favourite I must say. And he's really cute in all his dramas too.

Not doing anything special on V-day wasn't a pathetic thing at all when I realise that somewhere across the ocean, under the same sky, someone cares about me. And it's not lonely at all when you have Infinite and HSJ!! :)

This is one of the few pictures we have together, and this is one of my favourite.

A small step, a giant leap

My boyfriend changed his facebook cover photo yesterday, and I just realised it today, after I came back from my clinical session. And his cover photo is now the picture below:

This picture depicts exactly how I felt today. Well not in the sense that I just came back from a mountain hiking and felt for the girl in the picture. Not literally what the eyes see from it. After all, a picture tells a thousand words, right? That's what people say, and I am not denying that.

I've just started my clinical year as a dentistry student approximately half a year ago. We started off from learning how to take thorough history, doing intra & extra oral examinations, charting, assessing the extent of periodontal diseases using plaque score & bleeding on probing score, and things like that. I still can remember that I thought charting a full periodontal chart (using William's probe) was hard. And slowly, from that, I began to perform periodontal treatments such as scaling and polishing and placing fissure sealant.

Worthy to note here too that I was the only person in my group who has performed scaling using ultrasonic scaler. Not that my manual scaling skills was already superb that I was allowed to use it, simply because I had the opportunity to do so and I really thank God for that. Now that I look back, He's been there with me all along right from the start. Knowing how clumsy and clueless I am, I know I would not be at where I am now without Him.

And today, finally, I gave my first local anaesthesia injection and did a class I filling. To be honest, it wasn't so challenging, but compared to everything that I've been doing so far, that was very major. Having being able to accomplish this task successfully made me felt like I've taken a giant leap in my journey as a dentistry student or should I say a dentist-in-training?

Last week, when my supervisor was asking me to get a filling patient for the coming week, I was so nervous and did not feel confident at all. I really felt like I wasn't ready yet. I prayed a lot and thought a lot about it, and finally, I made my decision. So here I am today. Had I not been courageous enough to take up this case, I would still be in doubts and maybe, feeling a pinch of regret right now.

And that's one hell of a lesson for me. I've always been a coward and never wanted to be the first to try something new. There's always a first step to everything in life. Small baby steps would eventually lead anyone to their destination if they keep on going.

The picture that I've mentioned earlier totally describes how I feel at the moment. I've finally come to the highest spot that I could see when I was on my way of climbing up the hill. Then from that spot right now, I finally could see that the land ahead is so much bigger, the mountains so much taller. But there's valleys too. Deep or shallow I do not know, one thing for sure, they exist. To get to the next higher spot, there will surely be ups and downs, but if I keep on going, somehow, sooner or later, I'll be there.

From that spot where I'll be at in the future, I'm pretty sure that there'll be more potentials and more directions that I can venture to. So in short, today's not the peak, it's merely a small stepping stone towards something even more rewarding.

A small step it may seem to be, a giant leap it really is.

dorks

New love found.

1. La Roche Posay Cicaplast

This product is awesome. I found out about it when watching Lisa Eldridge's make up tutorial for acne prone skin. And she recommended it as a primer even though it is supposed to be a cream to accelerate healing process. I've been using this for a few days now, and I've noticed that my acne scars are beginning to fade. I'm totally loving it.

2. Yamada Ryosuke

Hahaha! He's a member of Hey Say Jump, a Japanese pop group. I'm currently watching Risou No Musuko & he's in it. He's soooo adorable. His voice is amazing too. I just love him..haha! (Not to mention he has similar built & height as my best friend Ben)

3. Foundation brush

I bought a foundation brush about a year ago and it was like abandoned all this while. Simply because I like the ease of applying BB creams using my fingers. But somehow, one day, I decided to try applying it using this foundation brush, so I took it out and surprisingly, the result was so lovely. I mean, the BB cream looks smoother & more natural on my skin. The coverage improved too. I can't believe how stupid I was for abandoning it for so long..hehe

4. Shin Ramen (Korean instant noodle bought from JiaJia)

I am a fan of Maggi. I'd never eat any instant noodle other than Maggi. But somehow, this is Ireland & not Malaysia. There was once when there was no Maggi in the local Asian shop, so being the lazy-to-cook girl as I am, I tried this brand. The portion is big, and very tasty too. Needless to say, I fall in love with it.

5. Sugar in my tea

My boyfriend taught me this. I love the taste of tea, just tea. Hence, I don't put sugar in. My boyfriend is like totally the opposite. He puts at least 3 teaspoons of sugar in one cup of tea. At first I find that a bit too sweet. But somehow, I began to get familiar with that 'sweet' tea taste. Having sugar in my tea now seems like a ritual whenever I miss him :D haha.. cheesy huh? It's just that it reminds me of him.

2012

Will it be the end of the world this year? Maybe, maybe not. There's no way we will be able to know for certain because it is only known to God.

I had a terrific 2011 year-end. Being able to celebrate Christmas and leap over into 2012 with the people I love most in this whole entire world was the like the best thing ever. I thank God for all these wonderful people in my life. Mom, Dad, Sisters, and other relatives and friends. Seeing them face to face again made me realised that I am so blessed.

School started 2 days ago, and as one would guess, I am not totally ready for the new term, just yet. My heart, mind and soul is still on holiday mood. And there were small tiny things here and there that simply made me uneasy.

Wouldn't say much any longer, but just before I close, I would really love to share these verses with everyone:

¹³ Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” ¹⁴ Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. ¹⁵ Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” ¹⁶ As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil.¹⁷ If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them. (James 4:13-17)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!

Winter Wonderland

Winter Wonderland was the theme for our DentBall this year. Yes, it's that time of the year again when we dentistry became slightly more interesting than usual. Well, at least for UCC's dental school for me. Simply because that's the only time of the year when the whole school was not in our daily scrubs, labcoats and black shoes.

My camera wasn't functioning so well last night. Too bad & so unfortunate. All the pictures were shacky and blurr and too washed off. I seriously need a camera that can be used indoor & at night I reckon. It'll come handy in fourth and fifth year to take project pictures too. Okeh back to the Dentball, to be honest, it wasn't that good..mmmm quite disappointed actually.

First off, the venue was so small. And I think there were some mistakes about the number of tables reserved because there seems to be some people who didn't have place to sit and the staffs were adding more chairs to some tables. Next, the food. Oh gosh, I was expecting something more but it was just so not good. Starter was vege soup & frankly speaking, the hospital's canteen vege soup is so much more delicious and cost only €1.40. Main dish was roasted chicken with mashed potatoes. Another disappointment, Tesco's chicken is so much nicer than this. And last but not least, I was hoping that the dessert will save the 3-course-meal from being totally disastrous but I was all wrong. The profiteroles were so tasteless. Even the chocolate sauce was so dry and wasn't even enough to be called sauce at all, more like merely decoration. Urghh..paid €50 for this. And as my friends said, it would be much better if we spend that €50 to dine in a fancy restaurant in town & later on go and watch some musicals in the Opera House downtown. We still get to dress up.

Oh ya, at first we thought it was really snowing because it was suddenly white outside the hall. We were tricked! Haha the DentSoc people rented a snow machine and made the snow outside of the hall. I really forgot to take some pictures of it. I was too busy admiring it..the funny thing was, I even texted my boyfriend who is in Canada (which is already snowing..the real snow) and happily told him that Cork's snowing. Haha..haven't told him that it was just fake snow though. It would be a good laugh for him.

And finally, the afters party. I love the band playing that night. All is not lost for DentBall 2011 huh? :) I think they were good. Oh I forgot to mention this earlier, the champagne reception. I think I love that the most. The champagne was really good. I took two glasses and took some chocolates too. Hehehe I had some chocolates stain left on my anterior labial teeth the whole night. Luckily the lighting in the hall wasn't so good so it was not so obvious.

So that's pretty much about it. And there's not so many pictures. I think there was only 5 decent pictures taken by me. Showed them to Ben last night, because he insisted to have a look, and those pictures I sent him only led him into laughter :)

That photo above is of me & my best mate Timah. We've been living together since first year (we were roomates even when we were staying in the hostel in first year and our rooms have always been next to one another since 2nd yr and now) My pose there was so Asian, isn't it? Haha with the 'V' sign and all. By the way, our dresses doesn't look any less better than everyone else right? (so proud of ourselves for getting cheap dresses but didn't fall short compared to to others..hehehe)

And this photo below is of Nkamo and moi. She's a senior from Botswana and is also a good friend of mine. We attend the same church and funny enough, every time we went together, we unexpectedly saw some random guy peeing at the corner just before the church's alley is at. Urghh yes, we saw the penis & balls & hair. I wonder why some guys do that. In open air, during the day, and even worse, 20m away from a church entrance on a Sunday morning?
Have a good week ahead people! God bless.

My personal Jung Sungha

Elvine J.Kantis: A very talented guitarist too. I love it whenever he plays his guitar when I'm sulking..hehe..pura-pura merajuk la selalu.